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Shiva sits at home... or just in this room that she's been living in.

Her legs are crossed and she is attempting to meditate but the calmness has been eluding her. She hasn't been able to reach it, no matter what technique's she's used.

It isn't the injuries, though they are annoying.

It is that she can't seem to stop thinking.

Standing up from her meditative position, she starts into a low level kata. It won't be long before she is far, far passed this.

Perhaps she can work herself into a peaceful exhaustion.

Date: 2005-09-05 08:16 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Outside of the Lady Shiva's window, a faceless man gently opened it and slipped inside. It was very apparent who it was, but typically the aura of mystery followed him regardless, even if his identity was very well known by her.

He stayed amongst the shadows, watching her curiously, but still did well to hide himself. Not that he ever could from her, but it was a habit he liked to keep.

Date: 2005-09-05 08:21 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Shiva's pushing herself. She becomes aware of Vic's presence but she's continuing to move, faster and faster, in more and more complicated manuvers.

At this rate, her injuries have become more and more apparent to the viewer and she might well hurt herself further.

There is no sound but what is pulled from her as she moves.

Date: 2005-09-05 08:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
"Is that necessary?" he inquired curiously, softly.

There was no need for her to hurt herself due to her injuries. There was no reason for it, as he watched her move in the complicated form like some twisted art. It was catching, it was fantastic -- it also worried him a little.

Date: 2005-09-05 08:33 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Shiva pauses for a moment, holding a position which looks difficult at best to hold balanced without motion.

She frowns and then starts moving again.

Apparently she thinks that this is needed at some level. Of course, with Shiva... There are strange balances.

Date: 2005-09-05 08:52 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Alas, then. He did not go out of his way to make her stop, until she would truly hurt herself. This seemed rather needless, though.

So thought the opinion of the faceless vigilante that typically returned home with bulletholes and such.

Hypocrisy ran into all sorts of people, in silence or in voice.

Date: 2005-09-05 08:59 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
She's getting to that point very quickly. It looks as though she has injuries gained since he last saw her.

Still, just as she's really getting into the truly dangerous territory she stops and lowers herself to the ground. Looking toward Vic, she shakes her head faintly.

Date: 2005-09-05 09:09 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Triggering the gas from his belt buckle, Vic peeled off his mask and approached her. He non-expressive face stared down at her.

"Second thoughts, so to speak?"

Date: 2005-09-05 09:15 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Shiva shakes her head faintly.

"It..." She doesn't have the words for it. Her exprience with self-doubt is minimal at best.

It's hard for her even to acknowledge it.

Date: 2005-09-05 09:19 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
"Shiva." He knelt down beside her, though did not touch her. Vic merely stared at her, calm though hardly known for it.

"What is it?"

He could guess. But he could be wrong, too.

Date: 2005-09-05 09:26 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
"There is something coming."

She isn't entirely certain what it is but she knows that it cannot be good. She knows that she tried to tell the people what they should know in order to stop it.

Date: 2005-09-05 09:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
"Many things are coming."

Though the one speaks of...

"The Demon Head?" he inquired, frowning a little.

Date: 2005-09-05 09:34 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Shiva nods a little and looks toward Vic, even still.

There are many things that Shiva want would be remembered for. She has guesses about what it is that is coming.

Date: 2005-09-05 09:37 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
"What is it the Demon Head has planned, Shiva?"

Date: 2005-09-05 09:42 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
"I'm not certain. He has not told me." Shiva looks up at Vic. She seems almost.. pouty. She is certainly recalcitrant.

"I think he's engineering a disease."

She's not sure but... it would be something Ra's would do. Especially after what he had her gather.

Date: 2005-09-05 09:59 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
"That sounds about right," he commented quietly. "From what can be followed, anyway. Haven't been able to use Sight so much lately."

Though that was certainly a personal choice. It was driving him outright mad.

Date: 2005-09-05 10:06 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
"Honor is a hard thing."

Shiva doesn't expect anyone to understand that. She doesn't expect them to understand that she just does what is asked of her from Ra's and doesn't question it.

This time she did, which was a great dishonor as well.

There is no upside that she sees.

Date: 2005-09-05 10:13 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
"And was this honorable, this favor you performed for him, Shiva?"

He might understand, a little. Only a little. Because he had pride to a point, but it wasn't the same as honor.

Date: 2005-09-05 10:17 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
"It was not but that ... should not matter in that not doing it was less so."

An impossible situation.

Date: 2005-09-05 10:26 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
"Hnn. You truly do believe that, don't you?" That didn't impress him too much.

Date: 2005-09-05 10:30 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
"I did."

She'd never been asked to help with genocide before.

Date: 2005-09-05 10:33 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
"Then what do you suppose you will do now?"

Date: 2005-09-05 10:41 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
"Hmm." Vic folded his arms loosely, comfortably, and sit back faintly. "Then what would be more honorable? Dwelling on it, doing nothing, or doing something?"

Date: 2005-09-05 10:46 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
"Doing something but I do not know what."

There is a pained look on her face.

Date: 2005-09-05 10:58 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
"I would make it right. If it meant the loss of lives without my specific intention, at any rate."

Vic frowned gently, lightly placing a gloved hand to her shoulder. "And it would save yourself, if you did this."

Date: 2005-09-05 11:03 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
"How to make it right?"

Even if it is a matter of finding Ra's and... then what? Killing him? There is a pained look on her face as she contemplates that, leaning just a bit toward the hand on her shoulder.

Date: 2005-09-06 12:19 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
"Do what you can for those who may suffer in what's to come. You told me as much once: to know how to harm others, you must first know how to heal."

Date: 2005-09-06 12:22 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Shiva nods, looking down at the ground. Reaching up, she presses her hand against the hand that is on her shoulder.

Date: 2005-09-06 01:16 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Quietly, he looked at the hand on his own, then back to her. "You'll know what you can do, when it comes," he told her softly.

Date: 2005-09-06 05:20 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]

Shiva looks up at him, her eyes narrowing with emotion.

Date: 2005-09-06 05:24 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
A hint of a smile.

"Yes. You will know, if you listen to yourself."

Date: 2005-09-06 05:29 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Shiva looks at him in silence and there is something there in her expression. There is a pause and she leans forward, looking to put her head on his shoulder.

Just for a moment or two.


Date: 2005-09-06 05:31 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Curiously, he watched her -- and the leaning and ... it confused him. A little. But he let her do it, knowing she needed to, since she so rarely liked comfort.

Date: 2005-09-06 05:37 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Shiva pulls back, realizing that he isn't comfortable with it, thinking that she might have pushed she shouldn't have, once again.

"Vic. I appologize. You are too kind." The shutters, the walls she holds around herself start to rebuild.

Date: 2005-09-06 05:44 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
"Shiva, it's..." Vic frowned softly. "It's difficult... ...I haven't been particularly close to anyone in a long time. Physically or... otherwise."

He shook his head. "...It's not your fault."

Date: 2005-09-06 06:01 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
And just like that, they stop. Shiva looks at Vic silently, her brow furrowing again in a bit of thought. Maybe a bit of pain.

".... Ah." Pressing her lips together she nods and gives him a brief smile. "I am not good with this."


"As you must have noticed."

Date: 2005-09-06 06:05 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
"Hm." He tilted his head, a bit amused.

"I know. But they say honesty is the best policy."

Date: 2005-09-06 06:12 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
"Of course."

Shiva looks up at him. She knows what she would normally do but this is not a normal situation for her.

"Thank you for your patience."

Date: 2005-09-06 06:13 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
"It's not always what I'm known for -- but I'm capable of it. You're welcome."

Date: 2005-09-06 06:18 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Shiva slowly, certainly slowly enough that there can be no doubt of her intent and to give him the time to stop her, she reaches out to put her hand against his cheek.

Date: 2005-09-06 06:23 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
His eyes dart to look at the hand on his cheek, and he frowned in confusion. It could mean many things or one thing -- he didn't know, because he stopped himself of physical comforting contact ages ago when his ring of friends became even smaller.

Questions, questions, so many questions. He hated not knowing the answers immediately.

His eyes returned to look at her, still in his confusion.

Date: 2005-09-06 06:31 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
At this point, it is simple physical contact. Shiva is... not pushing anything at all.

There is a small smile on her face but she doesn't lean in toward him.

"You will have to let me know." What is he is comfortable with.

Date: 2005-09-06 04:29 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]

He hesitated.

"I'm not sure what you're asking of me," he admitted quietly.

What was he comfortable with? Not a whole lot. Not usually. He wasn't sure how to describe the fact that he was relearning steps towards humanity and physical contact where it didn't mean getting broken or bruised, considering he brushed off everything else for a few years and only dealy with fights for awhile.

But she could relate, no doubt.

"I don't know," he confessed. Because it'd been too long and people were confusing him.

Date: 2005-09-06 04:35 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
"I am not either."

Shiva pauses and pulls her hand back, instead, placing it on his arm.

"We can take the steps as they come to us."

Date: 2005-09-06 04:42 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
He lowered his head. "Mm." It was his voice of agreement, but also a sound of being uncertain.

What was it she really wanted of him? He wasn't sure.


Date: 2005-09-06 04:48 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
There is a pause from Shiva and she looks at him, letting heartbeats pass, before she turns to look at him straight on.

"Vic. You are one of few people who I respect and who I feel respects me as well." Shiva's words stop, as she tries to be open, tries to communicate with him, even if it hurts to be so exposed. "You are one of the very few people I can call a friend."

"There are stirrings of other feelings in me." She continues to look at him directly, "Those can be stilled if they are inconvenent."

In other words, rejection will not be taken badly. It will just mean nothing changes. Which is not always a bad thing.

Date: 2005-09-06 04:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
...Ah. Those feelings.

"I'm not sure," he told her. "Right now, I've only just started to accept people into my life again other than the form of enemies." He had disappeared for a long time, trying to finish what he started and that could never be.

"I'm sorry. Right now, I'm not sure if... I could..."

Date: 2005-09-06 05:02 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Shiva inclines her head toward Vic and pulls her hand back from him, a small smile on her face. "I understand."

It must be an odd person, an odd mental landscape, where someone can control themselves so distinctly that screening those thoughts and feelings out is of no worry. It seems to be rather simply done. On the surface at least.


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